suicidal ideation annoyances

Ugh. Why is the part of my brain that keeps on muttering “your mother is dead, you feel like shit, kill yourself” over and over again the first bit to wake up and the last to go to sleep. Being up and doing other things drowns it out but it's always there first thing in the morning and last thing at night and I'm getting tired of its helpful reminder and suggestions for how to deal with the situation. Yes thank you for your contribution little depressive self-harming thought loop, it has been noted and considered; your suggestion of suicide is not one we care to consider any time soon despite your continued persistence. Now will you please shut the fuck up.

New Years Eve Doodles

I spent most of New Year’s Eve at a party hosted by Nick’s friends. I spent some time talking, drinking, and eating, but mostly I sat around drawing silly things.

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Suggestions from people who would quite happily be pitching for those higher tiers.

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I accidentally introduced Nick to “It’s My Beak” the other day, so I drew the rollerskating duck from the video to annoy him

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“That top dude looks like if the Brothers Chaps did a SF cartoon.”

*draws more stuff that deliberately looks that way*
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Keith Hairy is my new graffiti handle.

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I have a long-standing vow: if someone says “Draw me a yiffy vixen, Peggy!”, I will do so for free, and do my best to make them regret it with the drawing.

This one succeeded.

Then Nick and I got a ride back to my place and lounged in the living room cuddling. We spent most of the next day playing Assault Android Cactus on his computer; I unlocked a bunch of stuff in it because I have been playing that sort of game for decades. Looking forwards to the PS4 release of it.

 

 

 

 

Some Sophisticated Lady

I will be at Further Confusion in a couple weeks, drawing stuff like this and turning it into 4×6″ badges. I might take a couple of pre-orders; I’m not sure. Probably about $40.

The theme I’m using for these is “cocktail/tiki party”, which I think meshes nicely with the con’s theme of “1950s diner”. I may or may not have an endless loop of bongos playing at the table to enhance this ambience.

image test

Aaand this is a quickie test to see if tumblr mirror posts still lack a single image when posted from my local blog. Whee. Nice way to try and force people to use the new external editor if it is, wordpress dev team…

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edit. YAY! IT WORKS! That’ll shave a lot of hassle off of posting new art, then. And may increase engagement on future auto-posts of comics to their tumblrses, as well. Let’s see if changing the image changes the tumblr clone too – it started life as a frame of Lexy, now it’s me looking ominous.

edit. Nope! Didn’t change a single thing. Well. Now I know.

Test Post, Please Ignore 3: The Revenge Of Markdown

Trying an iOS app called “ByWord” that is mostly focused on being a text editor but also has a WP plugin.

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Here’s an image: me doodling in the margins of Urth of the New Sun last night. There’s no inline preview.

The main thing about this is that it supports Markdown as its text markup interface. Which would be a lot more useful with a real keyboard, though it does offer a toolbar for all of that kind of stuff.

edit: Okay, if you used any images you have to tell it to upload them, it won’t do that automatically. It also doesn’t make any allowances for editing your post afterwards. It’s a really nice environment for writing in but those are both kind of dealbreakers for my intended use as a WP client. Oh well.

Test post, please ignore. Again.

Here’s a test post from my phone on wordpress.com. Will it be less prone to dropping my posts on the floor than the app?

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Here is a photo of the previous test post. Wow, it sure is hard to type stuff after it without rreplacing it instead.

 

Edit: Weird, the ‘publish’ button was ghosted on the phone. I poked at the draft via the web and it was available; when I looked at the phone again it was available there too. Strange.

I miss being able to natter out a thought too big for 140 characters on the phone. The WordPress iPhone app has an alarming tendency to drop posts if it fails to connect to the blog, which it constantly does for me. Which is especially punishing when you’ve been painstakingly pecking out a thought that size on the phone’s keyboard. Recently WordPress made a lot of noise about their new editors, so I figured I’d see if it would work better than that. And, well, it seems to have a better time connecting to my site at least, even if it’s kind of annoying because it’s stuck inside of Safari and tends to constantly be popping the keyboard up over itself…

 

(And wow, I like how there doesn’t seem to be any control over the size of the image I inserted.)

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testing the wordpress.com post interface from my computer

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here’s a test image.

 

edit. HUH. Posting this way also actually posted the image to Tumblr instead of posting it as an external image, which is a REAL IMPROVEMENT in general – the official WP Tumblr sharing plugin does not do this, which makes my image posts super boring on there unless I take the time to make them to Tumblr myself.

Frater Billy’s Pocket Goetia

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So this is a thing I did for a zine Evan Dahm put together a while back. The zine was called “Hail Stan!”, and the basic idea was “misunderstood or misheard comedy Satanism”. It was printed in black on red paper. I’m pretty sure Nick helped me come up with some parts of this.

Every time I look at these I giggle, and think I’d like to make some more Pocket Goetia trading cards.

BEHOLD MY HOTNESS

um yeah looks like this I’M A SEXY VECTOR QUEEN thing is happening I guess

i feel so self-indulgent

still dunno if i’m gonna actually make this the front of the site

website refresh: ego test

Thinking about a facelift for the website. I’d keep the same overall format, just refresh the imagery a bit. It’s been about three years since I built the current version, and about three years since the previous one, it kinda feels like it’s time.

I dunno, does this feel like I’m being too egotistical? Having the first thing you see on my site be this giant stylized sexy version of myself with a crown of vectors and a giant stylus, so large that it refuses to fit on your screen at one time unless you have a 24″ monitor in portrait mode? HI I’M PEGGY AND I’M THE AWESOME EVIL VECTOR QUEEN ALSO MY EGO IS THE SIZE OF JUPITER.