write write write

7350 words, now. I haven’t made up for writing none Monday, but I’ve at least made up the slight deficit in only writing like 800 words yesterday. Is there a place where writers can apologize to their characters for the horrible things they do to them? Because I think I just had some of the seemingly “nice” elves rape my protaganist, then wipe that out of her mind and make her agree to what they wanted her to do. Ugh. It’s only implied, but ugh.

I am definitely going to have to split my time drawing this story with something lighter (like Absinthe!), as it goes to some pretty dark places.

I’ve transferred most of the remainder of the useful notes from my deck of index cards into Scrivener. Chapter 2 is entirely scripted in rough form, and chapter 3 is starting to take place.

Also while working on some of the initial dialogue fragments for chapter 3, I hit up Wikipedia for some reference. They’re running a donation drive, and I was like, oh why not, I use it so damn much, so I gave ’em $10.

walking around

Today was pretty much entirely taken up by going places. I went out to the two local comics shops noonish, but the people in charge of buying weren’t there in either store. Then I went out to the library to return some books, get a few, and enquire about donating a copy of Rita – I’m going to end up just proposing the library acquire copies, instead. On my way home I stopped at my regular comics shop, and sold them two copies of Rita. So if you’re in Seattle, you can now find it on the shelves in the U District Comic Stop!

Also I started setting up an online store because people are asking how they can get the book. Once I have some shipping prices nailed down I’ll open it up.

Yesterday I went to a party and handed off the first two copies of the book, as there were two Kickstarter contributors there. I brought a few extras in case anyone else looked at ’em and said “ooh awesome where can I get a copy”, which was good as I did make one more impromptu sale!

Nanowrimo count: 6160. Which is a bit deceptive as it mostly comes from me transferring a bunch of notes from the stack of notecards into Scrivener rather than writing NEW WORDS. Still, now I have most of it in one place. I also didn’t get a chance to write yesterday for reasons. So I am behiiiiind. Ah well.

And now it is time to do my best to avoid obsessively refreshing election news. Oh wait I just looked at Twitter and it seems it’s been called for Obama. CNN says it’s 256 vs 191 out of the 270 electorial college votes. Cool. Now the only election question left for me is “can Washington’s faggots get married while totally fuckin’ baked”. (I am hoping for a yes as I am one of those queers, and have a large glass pipe that’s never seen any tobacco.)

edit: That passed too. FUCK YEAH. And Dems control the Senate. Sadly the Repubs will still control the House. I wonder if they’ll still be operating on the theory of “deny everything Obama asks for, period, because that makes it look like things got fucked up on his watch” for Obama’s second term? If they want to keep on acting like spoiled two-year-olds… Nate Silver says we won’t know the final popular vote for a week or so, because CA, OR, and WA vote by mail and take a while to count. It’ll be nice if there’s a clear majority in both electoral and popular votes.

ps. sorry about the accidental comment vanishment T’, editing my WP posts manages to kill the corresponding LJ post and repost it instead of editing. Really must try to fix that. Yes, I’ve read Tekkonkinkreet, and seen the movie. It is awesome! Thanks for the recomendation though.

Rita: some numbers.

So yesterday in addition to the actual books, there was the final invoice from Marquis. Shipping was $304, so with the slight print overrun, I ended up paying $4004.80 for 420 books. That works out to about $9.54 per book. If all people had chosen was the $25 “you get a book” option, I would have broken even at 160 books. Not including shipping them out; I’ll see how much that ultimately comes to and do the final accounting. The Kickstarter closed at $5928, minus like $600 for Kickstarter and Amazon; I am pretty sure that the bonus prints and shipping the stuff is not going to cost $1.5k!

As is, I’m shipping out 105 books. 106 now, as I got an email asking for a copy after posting photos to FA/LJ/Tumblr/Twitter. Since he wasn’t part of the Kickstarter, I’m charging him a couple bucks extra for shipping. And I sold an extra one last night in person; I passed off the first two at a party last night, and had a few more books in my bag just in case anyone else wanted one. Which the hostess did! So yay.

Overall I’m pretty pleased with these numbers. It’s not “making a living” numbers but it’s also not “throwing money away” numbers. I’ve also got 312 books that will sit in my closet and hopefully get sold over the course of the next year; I’ll be selling a few to one of the local comic shops today for starters! At a reduced rate of course but still, that’s that many more books out of my hands. And every time I look in my closet I’ll have a reminder that I want to EXPAND MY CON PRESENCE; as is, I’m doing ECCC and AC this year in addition to my usual rounds of FC and RF. I’d applied for an alley table at Sakuracon but ended up way down on the waiting list, so that’s probably out unless someone got in and wants to share.

(Memo to self: look up local comic shops, drop them an email asking when there’s someone with authority to buy stuff in the store, bring ’em some books.)

(Also probably toss some at the local bookstores. I really feel like my market is not necessarily in comic shops. And maybe try to donate one to the local library when I’m there dropping off books that are due today, as well!)

the doctor who zombie fanfic dream

I was in the bottom floor of a high-security building. Maybe a mall, maybe some kind of Le Corbusieresque arcology. But the cyborg zombies had gotten in and infected the staff. Me and the rest of the party with the Eleventh Doctor were immune, but the cyborg zombies had us outnumbered.

It should be noted that these were very intelligent for zombies; they could talk just fine and didn’t have parts rotting off or anything. But their flesh had gone grey, and they had bits of metal festooning and controlling them. Basically the Borg I guess? Except all kind of sneeringly malign. And with a wider variety of clothes.

A little earlier, I’d walked right into this with another woman. Not like we really had a choice; we were surrounded and herded in to where the other uninfected people were. Nobody told us where to go once we were in, so we kept walking down the wide corridor, hoping to make it to a corner and vanish. Walking so as not to attract attention was excruciatingly tense, but we made it – and there was the stairs AND an elevator! The other woman hopped into the elevator, but I was too slow. Then there were a couple scenes of her pushing the highest button available (29 I think, though I knew the building was MUCH higher – I guess there was a sky lobby up there or something), and then it being explained by the Doctor that sadly she only had papers authorizing her to go up to floor 4. This would result in her being reconstituted from her DNA records when she got to her destination floor, and sadly, the records of her had her infected with the cyborg zombie disease. Good thing for me I was too slow to catch the elevator, I guess!

I’m not sure why I didn’t take the stairs. I guess the cyborg zombies caught me, and politely escorted me over to where the Doctor was being kept.

When the fat male cyborg zombie who was keeping me down on the floor started leching on me, I got pissed. Cyborg zombies, sure, I could handle that, but forced cyborg zombie sex? NO WAY. So I turned to the female cyborg zombie in a fake nurse’s outfit (she’d been working at a theatre whose uniforms had that vibe) and pulled out a weapon I didn’t know I had on me. It was a small blade on an extending pole, and it slid unerringly into her mouth, buzzsawing it’s way through the metal flaps at the back, and into her brain. Sawblade mandibles sprouted from the sides of her mouth as I did this, but my weapon was too fast – she was dead before she could get them into my hands.

The male cyborg zombie looked at me sadly, and gouged the tops of my feet open with his own razor-sized vibrating blades. It didn’t hurt. I suspect it would have soon. But then I woke up with my ankles crossed and slightly complaining about this.

BOOKS!

Books books books books booksbooksbooks books!

I am a REAL SMALL-PRESS PUBLISHER now.

It took three tries for the truck to actually get here. I mentioned this while chatting with the driver and he regaled me with a tale of a delivery to Facebook’s offices that was SUPPOSED to be a 15-minute dropoff, but turned into a three-hour epic when a manager came out and said “we’re not scheduled to take this yet so take it away”; he had to get it all back on the palette and in the shrinkwrap. He also expressed curiosity as to the book when I mentioned that it’s my first delivery as a small-press publisher, so I gave him a flier.

Now to start signing them, drawing in them, and getting them in the mail! I am definitely gonna be hitting non-furry cons this coming year, because I don’t want to have these things filling up my closet too long if I can help it. I’ll have four full boxes and one partially-full one after I ship out the ones that are already spoken for.

Valuable lesson learnt: When scheduling the dropoff, schedule it early, and politely ask if they could maybe make sure to load it near the back of the truck so I have a fighting chance of getting it in the shipping window.

the dream of the other plush dragon

Tonight: a long dream about… a long quest, I think.

We’d walked through the mirrors into a room. We knew how to get out: just walk through a mirror into room 15. Except the mirrors would change, and would reflect the wrong rooms. We were trapped in this room until we figured out how to get out.

Eventually I did: I drew a schematic for an organic gun, with 15 written backwards. Then the mirror just showed room 15 while reflecting that, and my companions and me could step through it to continue on our quest. Which was coming full circle since we were entering the part of the corridor that had water falling from the ceiling; we were hauling a hose up, to pump water out when we got to the proper room in the corridor not too far above. Someone explained this to me, that the audience might know (as it had been a long time since the beginning of the story), but I knew this already.

There was a lot more before and some after but it’s fading.

So instead here’s one from the night before that won’t fade.

There is a plush dragon that sits atop a hanging light fixture in my studio. His name is Gravity, and he watches the studio to keep it real when I’m not around. This is entirely a joke, not an actual intended majgickqhawockqalghl function. He also has an understudy, an orange plush triceratops named Sylvia. She sits on my bureau, doing the same for my bedroom. Both of them have this quizzical look to them, with their heads tilted perpetually to one side. Gravity’s made of bronzeish fake fur, with golden wings and underbelly – very much a metallic kind of dragon.

Gravity had been falling from his perch for a couple days, so I decided that he must want a sabbatical. I put him in the bedroom, and put Sylvia in the studio. She ended up sitting by the window on my bike’s seat, because she wouldn’t fit on the light. Unsurprising, it’s not like triceratopseri are known for their flying.

With my comedy plush guardians of reality thus rearranged, I went to sleep.

And dreamed. I was out there in the studio, lit by the moonlight. I didn’t have my glasses on. Sylvia was where I’d put her, but she was made of flesh, and just sitting there quivering fearfully. Obviously she was not ready for this; I’d have to put Gravity back on the job. So I picked her up, petting her behind her shield (which was unaccountably floppy) and set out for my bedroom. Halfway there, I felt something pulling me back to where I keep the watching plush in the studio; I ended up on the ground, crawling, to get enough purchase against this force. I picked up Gravity from Sylvia’s usual spot, put her there, and went back out to put Gravity where he belongs.

I bumbled around in the dark. There was now a table in there with something on it, which i knocked over as I tried to get Gravity up on the light. Then I turned it on and discovered that the walls in this corner were covered with hordes of action figures, all held to the wall by little clamps. It’s like they were on display. The table had a bunch of sculptures of dragons, some of which I’d knocked over.

Gravity was now for some reason on the end of a long, stiff pole, held up by wire. If there was enough room I could have swung him around in big circles, making him “fly”. I tried in the limited space I had available, making him do a bit of a curve around, then a downwards loop over the table. Maybe I was trying to do a downwards Immleman. I lost control, and he fell onto the table; when I lifted the pole, I got a new plush dragon. This one was black, with lots of sequins on its body to make it gleam.

Then I woke up (fully, not a dream “waking”), pulled on my robe, and picked up Gravity. He sat comfortably atop the light fixture the first time I tried putting him there. (It’s a shade hanging from the ceiling, so it’s slanted. Sometimes he slips off, sometimes he gets knocked off by a careless hand whilst putting on a coat.) I took Sylvia, put her back in her usual place, and went back to sleep.

I don’t think I’ve EVER needed my glasses in a dream before.

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Other fragments, meanwhile, from tonight’s dream.

I was sitting in a room talking with a man I did not entirely trust. He had a mirror universe goatee. Outside was blurry, but dark and rainy. I was verbally fencing with him about some kind of deal, and taking occasional notes in super-shaky penmanship with a pen that was running low on ink. Then he left to deal with something, and I was staring at a book, trying to memorize the first page – but I woke up, and it evaporated within seconds.

There was something about a book in last night’s dream too, in fact. After the black sequin dragon, as I was coming up into consciousness. With a complex sigil in the lower left I was trying to make sense of and a place for me to sign. Which I didn’t. I’m glad to know that dream-me isn’t making any contracts for me!

There was a large room with a corridor running in a circle around it. Two ten foot tall people in fursuits were in it; they’d sewn them together at the back so there were one four-legged, two-headed Janus-beast. Which was a parody of a sequence earlier in the dream where there was a similar situation with a monster that looked somewhat like that.

I was in a wheelchair? I think? There was a sensation of moving while sitting, at least. Going counterclockwise around the corridor, trying to lure the people playing the part of this monster, just as I’d lured the real one earlier. Then it cross faded into me going in a circle around some tables floating in darkness – clockwise this time – and looping past a woman taking notes and arranging cards. I dropped a card from the man with the goatee onto her desk, and moved some of the other ones around. I really have to wonder if this is related to me doing Nanowrimo, what with a lot of Drowning City existing on index cards.

Also there is someone playing a flute somewhere outside. Or listening to music involving a flute. At 2:30 in the morning.

trundling away

5346 words. Huzzah. Chapter 2 is up to page 9. The chapter’s not done but I think it’s close to done despite being about half the length of chapter 1. 2 will probably be a few pages more, at least; there’s some loose dialogue waiting for me to wrap the setting and acting around it. Also some of the dialogue in this chapter is kind of weak and overly direct; I haven’t found the voice for any of the Fair Folk yet.

I almost knocked off early, but I was like fuck you Peggy, you wrote like 1200 words the first two days but that doesn’t let you wimp out, 1000 words per day is still your minimum all damn month long. (Which the observant will note is only going to work out to 30k words at the end of the month rather than the 50k required for a traditional Nanowrimo run; I’ve set my goals lower because I’m focused entirely on beating this giant pile of old ideas into SHAPE rather than Writing A Novel.)

I’m debating if I want to move it from Evernote into Scrivener, so I can have separate sections for each chapter and easily get things like “overall wordcount”. I was originally thinking I might write some of it in bed with the iPad, which pretty much meant it needed to live in EN, but so far I’ve done all my writing here with the computer and its keyboard. I got Scrivener cheap in the recent MacHeist bundle, so it’s not like I’d be putting it into a time-limited beta or anything…

Now to go home, or at least to another cafe, and get some work done on something else. Probably FC t-shirts, I think.

putter putter

3. Blah is raising a finger. He’s looking quite imperious. We can see Alecto standing up in the background; she’s starting to look a little annoyed.

BLAH Excuse me. Am I going to be able to take a report on this to the Huntsmaster any time soon, or shall I come back after the blame has been thoroughly assigned to whichever one of you gets tired of arguing first?

ALECTO Um, hey, hello? What’s going on here? Are you people even listening to me?

4602 words. Chapter 2 of Drowning City is about half written. And will definitely need some editing as I kind of wandered a bit. But I got to show how bitchy the Fair Folk are, so that’s cool.

Also I got some progress in on the next page of Rita, including some design/model stuff for upcoming pages. Plus I came out of the shower and drew an overview of the shape of the rest of book 2 on the mirror, then sat down and expanded on it in my sketchbook a bit, and made some more notes on the overall shape of book 3. There are ducks, and I am getting them into a row, damnit.

Also I managed to make myself exercise a bit again. I’ve crept up in weight; I’m now hovering around 170, which is about 15 pounds heavier than I would prefer to be. I’ve really got to just restart the habit of exercising daily to lose this instead of spreading out even more in the wintertime.

nanogranoscimo

1325 new words, 2960 so far.

I’m done with chapter 1. It’s nice to see something that I’ve been carrying around in my head for about a third of my life finally coming out on paper.

It’s also interesting to be doing something I know will be a comic as entirely words for now. As I got near the end of this chapter, I had a thought about how to manipulate the sloppiness of the art to hint at the protagonist’s mental state, and how to start to foreshadow the blackouts that will be important later on, so I went back and added a few words to the appropriate panels. After a year and a half of doing Rita as a headlong fall towards the ending, this feels like an incredible luxury, and I’m sure it will feel even more like one when I realize something I write near the end of the story needs to have seeds planted through the whole thing.

I’m still sort of following the same plan I have for Rita; I have an overall structure planned out, and I’m pretty much just writing from the beginning until I reach the end. I’ve got a few fragments planned out in more detail. We’ll see how this all comes together at the end of the month.

Meanwhile I spent most of yesterday waiting around the house for volume 1 of Rita to be delivered. It did not show up, so I called the shipping company. Hopefully it will show up today, though this time I was scheduled for somewhere between 10 and 2, and, well, it’s pretty close to 2 now. I should call them and check, because I’d kinda like to take a shower but I don’t want to miss the delivery if it does show up in the next half hour or so! I want a receptionist.

Guess I’ll work on converting the next page of Rita from a sketch into a drawing. Seven panels, including setting a couple of new scenes. This thing is so complicated. But worth it!

physics abuse simulation

If you’ve read a lot of SF then you’ve probably read at least one scene where the protaganist is on a spaceship going an appreciable fraction of the speed of light – fast enough that they start to get the Doppler effect happening on photons, and see the colors of the stars start to change.

This game reverses the situation: as you play it, the speed of light gets lower and lower, so you can see the crazy rainbow effects happening at a running pace. There’s not much of a “game” here – just 100 objects to collect. But I had a lot of fun just running around watching the world change, and maybe even getting an intuitive understanding of what it’s like to go close to the speed of light.