2024

What did I do this year?

 

I watched parts of my professional life that were working stop working.

 

Patreon used to be a pretty good system for me to make comics, but they killed off the funding model I was using. It worked great as an incentive for me to crank out art when I got paid based on how many things I posted per month but when they forced everyone to switch to “your supporters just pay a fixed cost every month regardless of what you do” then my finances got reset to a place where spending the month doing comics is not paying enough for me to make ends meet, period, unless I double the amount of people supporting me. And on top of that the comics project I was working on started developing technical issues, my files have gotten huge and unwieldy and super slow to work with. Which is a recurring issue, this was part of what killed the last project, it has been a decade since I had a book-sized thing and this sucks.

I had a side gig doing paid avatars for Reddit that was real nice for a year and a half but they rapidly expanded the market for it and now it’s not worth anywhere near the time it takes to draw these things.

I keep on thinking I need to stop using Illustrator for a bunch of reasons and I just cannot make myself exert the energy to try and make sense of alternatives. Plus doing commissions with it is what pays my bills now. Spending a while being absolutely shit at art because I’m still figuring out a new tool is the exact opposite of appealing.

 

Also I got married.

 

I am out of shape and I can’t seem to get myself to return to being a person who gets up and exercises. I could be in much worse physical shape, keeping my main transportation as bicycling means I’m not slowly turning into a sphere, but I’ve sure been in much better shape.

 

Maybe making an art retrospective image will make me feel better and show me how much amazing stuff I did this year that I’ve forgotten?

hahaha no, I took an entire year to get about 3/4 of the way through the prologue and first chapter of the new comic, which I am feeling very low ebb about overall. I flailed uselessly at animation tools a couple of times. I spent a couple months on Reddit avatars that sold increasingly poorly – the ones I released in October took a month to make and only made me like $370; I’m not sure I even made minimum wage off of those. I think that’s definitely done. It was a nice paycheck at first, the ones from 2023 covered my rent for most of a year. I should really write something about the whole story of that thing sometime, I did it under another name because they involved NFTs when people still had opinions about those.

There’s far too many unfinished things in my folder for this past year. Way too many half-assed porn doodles that got finished enough to wank to but not finished enough to post. Half-finished portfolios and cover letters I haven’t done anything with. Aborted attempts at getting the hang of new art tools. There’s some obvious ideas for new year’s resolutions here, aren’t there. Maybe I’ll make some.

I wonder how the version of me who moved to Los Angeles back in 2019 instead of New Orleans is doing. Is she happy? Is she getting work? Did she get married to her version of Nick? Have any cats wandered into her life?


Anyway it looks like I am signing up for a tour at the co-working space at the Contemporary Arts Center and seriously considering signing up for at least a month of working there. Also I have decided today is a good day to dye my hair. Right now it’s covered in bleach; it’s been way too long since I had my hair bright red. I just lost the habit after moving.

 

Oh also if you read this far and have money to burn, my patreon still exists.

a useful object

I just found my pencil case again. It’s been missing since shortly after I moved back to New Orleans in 2019. I thought it went missing in the move but it’s actually been sitting in a purse that I was using on a regular basis for a while until it got swiped during the pandemic. I recovered the purse but just kinda quit using it after that and it’s been sitting in a pile of stuff since then.

The rest of this post is something I wrote on Livejournal back in 2010. I dug it up today because I was missing this pencil case. Maybe that helped me think of where it was. Maybe not. It still describes the connection this simple little artifact has to my history.


I have this little metal tin I bought in 2000 or 2001. It’s flaked aluminum and has Pochacco on it; I bought it at the Hello Kitty store because it was cute and I liked the font on it. And because I wanted something better than an old cardboard box or whatever. The fact that it totally queered my classmates out was a bonus (remember, I was still a boy back in 2000). It’s got room for 7-10 pens or pencils (depending on if one of them is a thick black marker), a little sharpener, and a plastic eraser. It looked cute sticking out of my jeans pocket when that was my primary means of transport, and it fits nicely in my purse nowadays as well.

At this point the only way I’ll replace it is if it gets lost, or if it falls out of my purse and gets run over by a car or something. It’s been dented and I’ve bent its rounded lid back into shape. It’s gone to cons and been my entire toolkit for doing table sketchbooks. At some point in the next few years I will meet an emerging artist who is younger than my pencil case and I will feel terribly, terribly old. And also strangely proud; with all the chaos I’ve been through in the past decade, this simple little object is kind of a connection to my past. I went to the Griffith Park Zoo I don’t know how many times with this and a sketchbook; it’s gone to friends’ places and been invaluable during late-night sessions of watching TV, chatting, and doodling. The exact contents vary over time as different pens come and go, but it probably won’t be anything exotic – the demise of the Blackwing cured my tool fetishism.

Some people have giant boxes that can store every tool they might ever need, and haul that to cons. Me? I just carry around this tiny selection of stuff. I have a lot more at home to play with – paint, colored pencils, and of course the computer – but this is all I really need. Less stuff = less superfluous decisions = one less thing to keep me from focusing.


Here in 2024 it’s looking a lot more battered than it was back in 2010. I think I need to add “rusts into uselessness” to the list of reasons I’ll ever replace it. I was real close to ordering a cheap, undecorated pencil tin off of Jetpens before I found this today. If Sanrio still made pencil tins I’d probably have ordered one but all their pencil cases are plastic or fabric now.

on the creation of contrast

Sometimes, especially when you are working in a simple style with a limited palette, you run into problems: you want to put a thing in front of something the same color, and have it still read.

Like this lady, who I drew in the same palette I used for Decrypting Rita, as an example for someone who was asking this sort of question.

Well. What I like to do is to make a new layer between the subject and background, and splatter in some shapes that create contrast around part of the subject. Once the composition works, then turn them into part of the background:

Blam, now she pops off the background. There’s still some ambiguity, I could add some more shadows to her body and clear up the arms some:

…and doodle in some other details, and I could just keep going with adding stuff here but I spent about a half an hour on this so far and it’s probably good enough to make my point.

well okay I can have a little a screentone on the background as a treat I guess

and a few more minutes touching up the city background I drew and deleted in the first version of this post

Interactive Propaganda

I looked at this and said “this needs clouds behind her” and then it started to feel like the character select screen of a video game so I spent a while turning it into that.

The multicolored type would probably be color cycling if this was an actual video game, and of course it would be scrolling up into the sky and giving you the usual attract mode stuff – enemy point values, copyright info, maybe even a couple more sentences of story, stuff like that. There is a token straight cis character but the text probably still reads “trans witch powers”, you just get to borrow them after saving a trans witch or something. It’s an indy game, we don’t have the budget for changing that! We most assuredly do have the budget to make sure all the text gets everyone’s pronouns right (because of course there’s a transmasc warlock or two, and maybe an enby).

brb, gonna go learn 3d and godot or unreal or something

 

vector witch

She’s pretty nice as long as you don’t make fun of her really, really strong text-to-speech accent.

13min doodle in Illustrator, after having fun playing Grid Ranger for a while.

 

Astute’s plugins are doing a lot of work here. Every single effect you can see is that appearance stack is one o theirs. The filled-in eyes have an extra fill on top with Illustrator’s native Scribble effect applied, so there’s some native effects going on here.

basketball

Just a little warm-up exercise: do an image search for “basketball news”, find a photo I like, work over it.

I wanted to see how well this would work with Image Trace doing half of the work for me so I fooled around with that first:

Not so great, really. Lots of messy shapes.

 

Separately tracing the head with different settings was interesting, though. I fooled around with trying to use the magic wand to select shapes and change them to better colors but ultimately decided that wasn’t working out. It ended up being useful for giving me an idea of the overall abstract shapes, if I was gonna do this again I’d still probably start with a greyscale trace.

Above: image trace. Below: the shapes I scribbled out with the Pencil tool. The ball and his number were the only things I did with the Pen.

 

I’m not entirely happy with it as a likeness but I think it’s decent otherwise. His left arm’s too chonky though. His right arm was too chonky at first too but I used Puppet Warp to push it around and slim it down some, that’s always a useful tool.

Illustrator, 2h. Now it’s time to go play phone tag with a plumber about a minor issue that came up last week.

Sator Square

This is a 100% black and white image. Any changes in brightness and color are due entirely to glitches in your visual processing system.

 

Illustrator, about ten minutes.

Nine Princes In Amber

A week ago, I had an idea: What if I did a set of covers for Zelazny’s Amber books? One week later, I have this.

Here’s some closeups. There’s some progress shots after them. And sketches for the rest of the covers.

It’s taken me about 21 hours spread out over the past week. Plus time spent reading the books and taking notes.

Lots of layers. Lots of graphic styles.

Lots of paths. Illustrator keeps crashing when I go to Document Info to find out how many there are and it takes a few minutes to render all the effects when I reopen it. Updating to the latest version doesn’t let me find out either. One of the folks in the Astute Graphics Slack was able to load the file and tells me it’s about 12k paths.

 

It’s come a pretty long way from a quick doodle on the title page of my copy of the omnibus.

I started reading it with the intent of looking for cover ideas and this one leapt out from the book at me – you’re sixteen pages in, and Corwin has just found a pack of the family’s magical Tarot cards that let them talk to each other no matter how many alternate worlds are between them, and he lays them out on a table and thinks a few sentences about each of them. As I sketched that out I had the additional idea of having everyone reaching out of their cards towards Corwin and that felt so incredibly obvious that someone has to have done that before, but I can only find a few editions that even have cards on the cover at all, and only one lonely audiobook that actually draws more than one of them!

Actually it was grandpa who fucked a unicorn, I couldn’t get a good Latin “translation” out of Google so I left that off the crest when I put it on the tablecloth.

I kept on reading. Got as far as the third book before I stopped. The image for Book 2 initially appeared in my head with the same unnerving alacrity as the idea for book 1, but nobody seems to have done it either. Book 3’s a bit messy but it’s very much a Middle Book and that’s not surprising, I guess. This got me far enough to be able to say “Brand should have a hint of the Courts of Chaos behind him as foreshadowing” though. (Spoilers for a fifty-year-old book, I guess? It’s not like Corwin doesn’t straight up say he doesn’t trust Brand in the two pages of looking at all the cards.)

The crown was one of the last things I finished. As far as I can tell Roger never actually described it in the books beyond saying it’s seven-pointed. I started with a seven-pointed ring of amber and that was good enough but I knew I’d need to come back to it before the picture was finished; I ended up with seven unicorn horns carved out of amber, and a guest appearance of Marigold Heavenly Nostrils from my friend Dana’s comic as the Royal Unicorn Of Amber.

If I do an animated or comics adaptation of this series, I would like the crown to constantly be saying things like “now kids, be nice to each other” in any scene she shows up in. Little orange word balloons with white text. Nobody ever pays any attention to her, at least not in terms of actually talking to her, but there’s definitely room for some humor around the edges here.

Corwin was the first to get drawn, after I’d set up the card borders and the tablecloth.

And then one more bit of inspiration struck: the shadow of Oberon, the absent king of Amber, hangs over the whole saga. Why not make this literal? I put Corwin’s card in front of his shadow and that looked super good. I sketched seven points on his crown’s shadow, and realized: the cartoon sweat drops I’d drawn around Corwin should number seven, too. That’s why there’s pearls accenting the crown, too. To echo those sweat drops.

I started drawing everyone else. Just quick little things, taking note of what little detail Roger gave, and trying to enjoy filling in the other ones.

I mean it is like 90% likely that Roger imagined every single Amberite as a person of Northern European ancestry, all the book covers certainly went down that road, but he doesn’t explicitly specify that Corwin and his sister Deirdre weren’t Black and I think that this is a perfectly fine choice illustrative choice to make. I let Julian manifest with a sort of Japanese samurai vibe, too. Went back in and changed his face to push it a little more later on.

Random’s mustache is incredibly regrettable. I am proud of this. I ended up making deliberately regrettable hairstyle choices for most of the princes I drew after this one.

why how curious, look at that strange background, that is surely some kind of metaphorical Tarot reference and not a foreshadowing of the influence of any opposing organization who lives under strange skies that are both daylight and night-time at once, not at all

Roger is very explicit in the text: “sleepy hollow, man, you ever seen that cartoon? yeah, benedict is one ichabod crane looking motherfucker and he’s a good egg.” Well. Not quite that explicit. But close. My first version had more regrettable hair – he had the same Caesar curls that Mark Zuckerberg affected until recently. Then I read the description and didn’t feel like it would fit.

I generally wanted the feeling that almost every single one of these guys has made hilariously awful hairstyle decisions. I was laughing my ass off at Gérard’s little fringe beard. Nobody around him is willing to tell him that it really isn’t working. Nobody around any of these guys is willing to tell them it isn’t really working. Because they all have a lot of money and the ability to walk to worlds where a major religion is focused on worshipping them as a deity and willing to follow them to death, never mind the ability to find places where everyone is gonna indulge their petty urges like casino employees making sure that high roller gets whatever they wants.

Anyway. This one’s probably done. Writing this up, I saw a few things I might want to go back in and tweak – Julian could be more Japanese, Benedict could be more Ichabod, Random’s shirt could really use a regrettable pattern of parrots or something for that Jimmy Buffett vibe – but this feels like a good place to stop, and either get back to my other projects or turn one of those other two sketches into a cover.

If you want to see the source file, it’s over on Patreon.

edit. I’ve got sketches for all the rest of the Corwin chronicles now.

This one’s actually in progress, I spent a few hours fooling with it and it’s really coming together nicely. The idea came flashing to me pretty early in reading this one and got refined due to the fact that Corwin doesn’t actually fix the Pattern until much later in the series. The central idea of a shadow across the Pattern that blossoms into the monsters of the Black Road felt like something I have to have seen before and yet I can’t find any examples of it.

This is the first one that doesn’t really have a clear image. It’s a messy middle book and hard to pin down into a single image. Doodling this gave me the inspiration to have the Courts of Chaos lurking on Brand’s card though so it was certainly worth my while even if the final piece bears no resemblance to this sketch.

The title is the Hand of Oberon but here I am with the hands of Corwin and Dworkin instead. I feel like there is something to be done to hint more clearly at the “hi I’m your grandpa and I fucked the Unicorn to make your dad” revelation, we will see.

I definitely like this idea though. There’s two layers. Maybe three. A mosaic of views of the castle of Amber in a grid of cards, being blown away by the wind to reveal Chaos beneath it. It needs some kind of human element that’s clearly neither layer and I’m not sure what. I think my idea of a silhouette of Corwin tracing his new Pattern, with the tree branch he planted at its start, and some of the Pattern, all inside his silhouette, is a decent one. Lots to fit into one image though. We will see what happens.

the crying of lot 49

Illustrator, 1h.

I decided to fool around again with the “big swooshy line with a parallel line brush” technique I played with yesterday.

 

I’d drawn this big swoosh in the same file before I closed it yesterday. I duplicated it and started fooling around – I rotated it, stuffed it in a distortion mesh, rotated the mesh back, and made two new mesh lines close together in the middle, then pulled it apart. And made a bunch more mesh lines to let me wave it around.

It looked vaguely like a figure so I added a few more mesh lines to make a rectangle around the head area, and another mesh line down the middle of that area to create some points to pull around.

 

The parts coming up and around kinda felt like a hand holding something, so I drew a stylized post-horn and some hands.

I really wanted this to just be B&W but I was lazy and used a second color to knock that hand back. Then it started to look like an old super-designey Penguin Books cover so I looked online for the grid they structured everything around for a few decades, dropped it in, and moved things around until it looked good.

And then I rendered it out and posted it and now you are looking at it.

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